Gone Away

I have decided that I am going to cover this song. Flint has agreed that he will Learn how to play the piano parts and basically create a whole new backingtrack. I’m not sure how I will make it through it without crying but Flint says that’s what makes a good song, the emotions that come from singing it. Having thought about what he said, I agree but I have never been one to show my emotions to the public. I got really teary eyed whilst singing The Rose and it showed in the recording but that was due to the things floating around in my head at the time. I had sang it just days after Jim past away and it was he who it was recorded for. He had always told me I should do something with my singing and I never did till after he died. I wish I had recorded before but I never did. Jim always told me I had the voice of an angel when I sang, I don’t think I’m that grate but others like it so this is why I continue to sing. I love seeing others happy. Not only that but I must admit that singing for me is very therapudic. There are those who get annoyed when they hear a recording of me singing and it makes me think that I shouldn’t sing. It just reinforces what I feel about myself, that I am not that good and maybe I should not do so for anyone, just in private. Then there are those who ask me for more so I don’t exactly know what I should do at times. So, I keep singing in the hopes that someone is enjoying it and that I am making people happy.
Now that i have kind of gone off course, I’m posting the lyrics to this song in dedication to Jim. Yes, I know he’s been gone for almost ten years but I still miss him very very much. This song was originally done by The Offspring I do believe and I have to say I do so love Noctura’s version much better. Thank you to my good friend Gina for introducing me to this band.

Gone Away
By: Noctura

maybe in another life
i could find you there
pulled away before your time
I can’t deal it’s so unfair

and it feels
and it feels like
heaven’s so far away
and it feels
and it feels like
the world has grown cold
now that you’ve gone away

leaving flowers on your grave
to show that i still care
but black roses and hail marys
can’t bring back what’s taken from me
i reach to the sky
and call out your name
and if i could trade
I would

and it feels
and it feels like
heaven’s so far away
and it feels
and it feels like
the world has grown cold
now that you’ve gone away

i’ll save your soul

and it feels
and it feels like
heaven’s so far away
and it feels
and it feels like
the world has grown cold
now that you’ve gone away

Thanks for reading and i’ll see you next entry.

XOXOXOLove to allXOXOXO

Lily

Rants And Karaoke

This has me worried. I know this isn’t going on in the US, well yet at any rate but it still has me on alert. I use the word yet because with the way things are happening these days there’s no one saying that we who are Wiccan/Pagan in the US are safe. Come on people! This isn’t the Puritan times anymore and it hasn’t been for a long time. Whatever happened to freedom of religion? OH wait, I forget, our freedoms seem to be becoming less and less as the years go by. I just can’t believe that witch hunts and witch killings are going on in other countries. I get so tired of people saying there religion is the right one and how ever someone else chooses to practice is wrong. Who the bloody hell are you to judge me for the way I worship? Yes, i am proud to be wiccan and no matter how you want to try and tell me it’s not right or i’m going to hell for it, it won’t change a thing. So condemn me, it is you in the end who will be judged for doing so.
Sorry, this article just urks me. I’ve got a friend who openly tells me constantly that I’m going to hell for being Wiccan. He is a strong Christian and believes that his way is totally right and the way anyone else worships is wrong. He and i have this arguement almost every time we talk. He is one that would rejoice if the witch hunts began happening in the US. He also thinks that one day I will come around to his way of thinking and worshiping. I told him to keep wishing and dreaming because it would never happen in this lifetime. I accept everyone for who and what they are. I don’t judge anyone for their beliefs and never would. Nor would i try to convert a person either, that’s not my way. If people had questions about Wiccda then I would answer them to the best of my ability but never would I try and tell them they are wrong and try to change them.
Just for the record? Wicca/Paganism is *not* devil worship. It is an earth based religion. Ok so we make potions of sorts using herbs and such, but this means it’s all natural. What’s so wrong about that?

Witch-Hunts, Moral Panics, and Modern Pagans

NEXT RANT…

WARNING: The oppinions expressed in this rant are my own and not meant to offend anyone. They are my oppinions only. If you don’t wish to read any further, i’d totally understand. You have been warned.

For this one, i will be posting things from the article and commenting on each one I take from it. i’ve posted the link for two reasons. 1. So that you can read the article in it’s entirety if you’d like as I am not going to post the whole thing and 2. It’s always good to site where you got information from. Just so you all know who may not know, I am a totally blind person.

How to Care for a Blind Person http://t.co/nkXmZ7rXFq via @eHow

BEGIN ARTICLE…

Having a disabled person in your life can be a challenge. Many blind people have never had sight, so they cannot relate to color, shape or perspective. Here are steps you can take to help a blind person live with his or her handicap.

Comment: This is interesting, *note the sarcasm*. I must admit before i go any further, some of these do make sense. First the ones that do make sense. There is nothing worse than running into a door especially with your head or face like I have done on occasion.

Statement: Put everything back in the same place after cleaning. If you have someone help you clean, make sure they are advised to do the same.

Statement: Keep everything on a blind person’s desk exactly where he or she left it. This applies to braille paper, CDs, radios, telephones and computer accessories.

Comment: Ok, this does make sense however, if something gets moved i just simply look for it or call the person and ask, hey, where did you put my CD for instance. To me, this is no big deal.

Statement: Try to keep all hallway and cabinet doors closed. Warn the blind person if you plan to have a particular door open for a prolonged period.

Statement: Help the blind person braille a list of important phone numbers, account numbers and any other personal information they might need to access when you are not available.

Statement: Keep restocking supplies of anything the blind person uses regularly. This includes food and drink, bathroom items and paper towels.

Comment: What? It’s not everyone else’s responsibility to keep your house restocked with things you may need. You must take some responsibility for yourself and make some effort to get the things you need. Just sayin.

Statement: Take out the trash regularly. Check for food that has been accidentally dropped on the floor or not returned to the refrigerator.

Comment: How hard is it to look for what gets dropped out of the refridgerator? I hear it fall, I get down on my hands and knees and feel around till i find it. Yes I do feel silly at times doing so but it works. Well that and i have a cat so I must find it before he does.

Statement: Remember to turn off the lights before you leave, particularly if you are a part-time caretaker. Most blind people have limited incomes.

Comment: As a general rule, I go around after a sighted person leaves my apartment and check to see if the lights are on or off. I feel to see which position the switch is at. If it’s up i flip it down. Again, not a hard thing to do. I always tell them lights are overrated but they still seem to need the bloody things.

Now here are the warnings and tips they suggest.

Comment: Here’s what i mainly have issues with.

Statement: Some blind people have problems opening doors with keys. You can buy a lock that requires both a matching fingerprint and a code for entry. It also comes with a standard key as insurance should it stop functioning.

Comment: Hello! Using a key isn’t that hard. So ok it may take you a few seconds to find the keyhole but so what. I just don’t think something like a fingerprint pad or whatever it is is a necessity. Take that few extra moments and locate the keyhole with your other hand while inserting the key with the other.

Statement: Keep all sharp objects like knives or scissors out of reach.

Comment: Just what are you smoking? This is the one that gets me the most. I am perfectly capable of using a knife to cut vegetables or fruits for cooking or just for eating a raw carrot periodically. With some training, a blind person can use a knife and a pair of scissors just fine. Yes, I may cut myself at times but so do sighted persons. No one can use a knife perfectly all of the time.

So there you have it. I feel that article was maybe geared twoards parents of blind children and teenagers. The blind can be taught to go through life indipendently and not have to be cared for all of the time. I realize some blind are sheltered all of their lives as parents and family feel a blind person cannot function on their own. I assure you we can and I do. There are places a blind person can go to so they can learn how to go through life caring for themselves.
My question is, what would happen if the parent or family member died? I realize that’s a bit morbid but as we all know it is a part of life. What would you do? How would you cope? Allow yourself to be put into a group home? Expect someone else to take up the slack? I’m sorry if I seem a bit harsh but this kind of thing bugs me. I know we need help sometimes but not all of the time. As i stated, i’m totally blind and I have my own apartment, I have a job, I can go shopping alone, although not totally as i have to ask for assistance when I get to where i’m shopping. Even that is showing your independence. I cook, I clean, I take care of a hansome four-legged feline, this means feeding him, cleaning up his hairballs and cleaning out his litterbox. I mop, vaccuum, do the dishes, clean the bathroom and everything that needs clean around the house. i also do my own laundry. My point in telling you all this is not to say that i’m better than you because I don’t feel i am, but to say that a blind person can learn to do all of this on their own as well. Nothing bothers me worse than a blind person saying that they can’t do something because they can’t see. You can, you just need to learn of ways to do so.

Ok, rant over. I do apologize if anyone was offended but as I stated in my above warning, they are only my oppinions.

Last night I went to a karaoke contest after work. I entered with the song Ten Thousand Angels by Mindy McCready. At first I wasn’t sure i would sing but decided i would. After the contest, I was asked to close it with another song. i sang Love Will Keep Us Alive by The Eagles. I ended up winning the contest. There was a guy that i heard say, “I could listen to her sing all night.” I got asked if I’d give out autographs and I just laughed because i didn’t think they were serious. They brought me papers and pens and asked me to sign. They meant it apparently. So i spent like 20 minutes signing autographs. We did video me singing so I’ll try to get it off my phone and put it here so you all can see it if you like.

I suppose, that’s all for now. i need to go and get ready for work. See you all on the flip.

Lily

What Really Got Under My Skin

This post is a conversation which took place between myself and Mike. I’d like to thank Jerry, AKA Jammin Jerry for logging into my twitter account and putting together this text file. Yes, I *did* give Jerry my permission to do so.

Conversation between Mike Stopka, and Lily Poss

at 6:42:59 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: Hey

mike cutie and maia posted hay at 6:43:08 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 6:45:53 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: I have some news I don’t think you are going to like

mike cutie and maia posted O? at 6:46:02 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 6:49:05 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: Yeah.

mike cutie and maia posted what is it cause i think i have an idea and if we are thinking the same thing its not bad news at all at 6:49:41 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 6:53:15 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: WEll, I kind of sort of need the ipad back.

mike cutie and maia posted ok if you can get it clean as it has water damage at 6:53:46 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 6:54:57 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: how does it have water damage?

mike cutie and maia posted I got sota spilled in it at 6:55:09 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 6:56:39 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: I will send it in if I need to but i need it for work. They foudn a way for me to do credit cards with it.

mike cutie and maia posted fine I see that you are an indian giver but its fine I will get it ready for you to give back you want my desktop too? at 6:57:13 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted sense your asking for things back at 6:58:04 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 6:58:26 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: Are you offering? You don’t need to be that way about it.

mike cutie and maia posted You tell me that I can keep the stuff you gave me then you deside to ask for some of it back I wood have never done that to you at 6:58:56 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted so how wood you expect me to feel at 7:00:52 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:01:11 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: I asked you for the ipad for work.

mike cutie and maia posted ya so your asking for things back which you said you woodn’t ever do so you lied at 7:01:40 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted you want to be that way fine but don’t expect anything from me cause you proved who you really are at 7:02:33 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:05:04 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: Fine you want to be that way, yes i want back the computer too.

mike cutie and maia posted good luck with that one good luck trying to switch your phone to flint then at 7:05:32 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted you want to test me on that one try me at 7:06:46 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:07:44 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: What ever. you are the one saying you now see who I really am. you wanna accuse me of being bitchy or whatever I will be.

mike cutie and maia posted you have the never ask your concler or land to air to buy you one the IPad isn’t even registered to you I’ll give it back and report it + at 7:08:43 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted stolen at 7:08:48 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted and sense how verizon works i will report the phone to at 7:09:06 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:11:09 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: YOu do that.

mike cutie and maia posted cause it isn’t fair that you wood ask me to return a gift you said I could keep when you have an IPhone and a rehab concler at 7:11:46 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted plus once my phone is cancled all I have is the IPad when i leave at 7:12:04 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:13:18 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: Tahts’ not my problem, I don’t care.

mike cutie and maia posted well you needing it for work I don’t care figure out how to get yourself one at 7:13:44 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:16:20 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: You could have asked maureen for an ipad

mike cutie and maia posted no I couldn’t have I couldn’t have justafied it like you can at 7:16:43 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:17:36 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: I simply asked you for the ipad back for work and you freak all out and what ever. It’s not like I want the stupid comp back.

mike cutie and maia posted ya well I use both You can get one justifed at 7:18:12 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted why wouldn’t you try for a mini at 7:18:47 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted or a newer one you wood gain more at 7:19:00 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:19:20 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: nO I can’t I has asked

mike cutie and maia posted you can efford to buy a yetty and all that but you can’t go to best buy and buy a mini hmm at 7:19:52 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:22:30 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: because i dont’ want a mini. and i didn’t expect you to be such a prick about it.

at 7:22:48 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: Unless there’s another rreason you don’t want to have it back.

mike cutie and maia posted concerding that I am moving out of contry and that has been one of the main things i have been using and you saying that you wood never + at 7:23:44 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted ask for things back how would you expect me to feel. at 7:24:00 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:25:50 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: I asked you for the ipad for work, i figured you’;d be abit moer understanding but apparently not. ‘

mike cutie and maia posted you no after the way you moved out how i feel about arms and jason and all of them so you really thought I wood be understanding? at 7:26:29 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted Your getting what you want I am leaving and you have things most back to they way they were at 7:26:52 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:28:51 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: what ever, you ahe a new girl so I don’t see why you are still so upset over it.

mike cutie and maia posted You no how I feel about it its whatever I wood have never asked you for anything back I wood have figured out how i could do it at 7:30:26 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:31:09 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: well i’d have gien it back had you needed it for work so whatever.

mike cutie and maia posted I woodn;t have asked you in the first place cause that is not the kind of person i am at 7:31:48 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:31:54 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: I gave you so fucking much and paid for so fucking muych and never once complained.

mike cutie and maia posted and I am greatfull for it but I still wouldn’t have asked you for it even if the tables were reversed at 7:32:33 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:34:05 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: what ever.

at 7:34:20 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: I know the real reason you dont’ want me to have it back so…

mike cutie and maia posted o and what is that if your so smart at 7:34:35 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted And if its things you herd from flint he better be carefull too at 7:35:02 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 7:40:02 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: It has nothing to do with flint.

mike cutie and maia posted I’m at the point ware I care about no one around here at 7:35:59 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted so what is the real reason then if you think you no so much at 7:40:19 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 8:08:58 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: AS far as you not caring, i’m beginning to think you never really did.

mike cutie and maia posted I cared at one point just not now at 8:09:19 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 8:09:54 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: and do you not think people on the internet talk?

mike cutie and maia posted of couse I do but if your stupid enough to believe them that is your own problem at 8:10:31 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 8:10:10 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: NO you don’t cause all you care about is what you want.

mike cutie and maia posted that is also you I want my own place you got it so you did to remember that at 8:11:26 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 8:14:18 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: I tried to compromise with you about that and you wouldn’t, so not my fault.

mike cutie and maia posted their was no compramise their you made your dession I made mine and it seams to be for the best at 8:15:34 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 8:16:13 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: Yeah, what ever.

mike cutie and maia posted you need to make sure you pay your half of the verizon bill so your phone can be transfered to flint at 8:19:38 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 8:23:13 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: yeah, dont’ worry aboutit, I’ll pay it.

mike cutie and maia posted it will be transfered as soon as ou do cause they won’t let me with part of the money being o’ed I was nice enough to make sure it wasn’t + at 8:24:34 PM, on 3/4/2013

mike cutie and maia posted canceled when mine gets canceled at 8:24:52 PM, on 3/4/2013

at 8:25:44 PM, on 3/4/2013, Lily posted, DM to mike cutie and maia: I said i’d pay it, dopnt’ worry about it, i have paid it always.

mike cutie and maia posted I was just saying at 8:26:03 PM, on 3/4/2013

I know this is going to make some people angry but I myself was extremely angry at the situation. People need to know the whole truth about why we split and soon there will be an entry about this at another date.

Test post

Hey all,

This is just a test to see if this works. IF so, I will be as excited as one cna be.

Not doing much at the momen, just doing a show on Audio Access FM. www.audioaccess.fm for The Friday Night Party Zone. Right now playing Katy Perry’s Last Friday Night. Awesome song if I do say so me self.

Well i’m off to see if this posts. That and I have avoice break coming up soon.

Bye for now darlings!

Lily