Lazy Mondays and Tired Tuesdays

Yesterday was a rather lazy day filled with a case of the extreme sleepies and an uninvited migraine headache, there’s nothing wrong with a lazy day occasionally but I could have done without the migraine. Some medicine and a nap later and I felt a bit better… or so I thought. I sat up for a bit but low and behold, I was back down again. Unnecessary to say but it was one day that wasn’t fun at all. Noodles and Company’s butter noodles and a baguette make for some grate comfort food. Usually, I go for their mac and cheese but yesterday was a buttered noodles kind of day.

Three positives for September 17th

1. My headache finally went away.
2. Cuddles with my cat, Freya.
3. Buttered noodles from Noodles and Company.

Today was another low energy type day, not impressed but what can I do? I don’t do any type of drugs except for my meds ordered by the good doctors of the MAYO Clinic, so that’s not a thing and never will be. I did manage to get a couple things done so that’s progress man.
Tomorrow I’m off to visit the diabetes educator to help with the new sensors I’m stuck wearing for now. Apparently having a blood sugar of 464 is cause for concern. I don’t mean to make light of the situation I currently find myself in but I have to joke about it or I’ll just cry and that won’t fix it so laughter is the way for me to go. I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes a couple of years ago and I’ve kept it quiet until now. I’m now on insulin which kind of sucks but it’s a necessary for the moment. I’m seriously hoping I can change things in my life and I’ll be able to rid myself of it. This stuff runs in my family… well my biological family. I remember my grandfather had it, not sure if anyone else did but I know that he suffered from it.
Anyway, time for me to get settled into my nest for the night, so I will say goodnight to you all. I’m going to go and finish listening to Shay on RTE Radio 1, his name’s Seamus but he goes by Shay. His voice is so soothing to me, I used to fall asleep listening to him before sleeping on face time with my partners. Even Ashlie AKA Bunny says he sounds hot, I totally agree. Anyhow, for the second time, goodnight to you all.

Three Positives for Monday, September 18th.

New soft sheets for my bed.
Listening to Shay on RTE Radio One.
Having fun with Zoo tycoon.

Oh, by the way… Ashlie = Bunny, Crystal = Tigger and Gumby = Chris. This is how I will refer to them in future.

Much love from Raven

Main Highlights

Goodness gracious, grate balls of fire!

Don’t ask, it is currently the song running through my head for some unknown reason. 😸

So, it’s update time as best I can do. I may not remember everything from this past year of not writing but I’ll try.

• Raven Zariah Mooney

I have finally, finally figured out exactly who I am. I am Raven Zariah Mooney. I know that I said that with Winter Skye Fox, but a few things have happened and that was no longer me. Let us start from Why I’m no longer interested in being called Winter. The first reason is simple, I got irritated with the cold weather jokes. There were those who actually became upset when I could do nothing about the weather. Second, Fox is no longer a last name I will be using. I’ll get into that in a bit. Raven has always been a name that has resonated with me, ever since I was a teenager, I have loved that name. When I was in the first grade, I had a friend named Raven, she was only there that year and then her family moved away. She was one of the only girls in the class who would even talk to me. I don’t know if the other kids were afraid of catching my blindness or what, but Raven was an amazing friend. There was a war of sorts going on in my head because I also love the name Phoenix, still Raven won out. Zariah is awesome for its uniqueness and Mooney is my mother’s family name, it’s a great Irish last name. ☘ 🍀
So, that is who ai M, I have begun the legal paper work to have it changed. I’ll be overjoyed when it’s done. Thanks for your patience with this whole name thing. Besides, Raven’s a gothic name and it fits my personality, or so I’m told. “Quote the raven never more.”

• The New Apartment

We finally got out of that place I like to refer to as Hell! This place is so much nicer and I’ve bene really happy living here. The landlord and her assistant are super cool and very easy to work with. However,… I no longer feel the way I used to about being here. It’s not that things have changed with management or anything like that but ever since May eighth, tears, sadness, memories… I can’t do it anymore. So, I’m searching for something new. I need to get away from here.
That’s all I really have to say about that.

• Exit Kaylie

Once I tell you about this one, you should have a better understanding of the above writings.
Kaylie decided that she no longer holds romantic feelings for me, so on May eighth she ended the relationship with me. She said for two years she has tried to make herself feel for me the way she once did but she just wasn’t able to do it. I’m not writing this for her to be ridiculed or flamed because she’s tortured herself for that already. She says she still loves me and always will and will care for me, but she just doesn’t love me romantically anymore. After five years this was hard for me to deal with. Still, I hold feelings for her that I can’t turn off and at times my thoughts run away, and tears fall. I’ll hear a song or look around the apartment and she haunts me. I will say though, it’s getting easier now, but I think that moving away from this area will definitely help. I truly hope she’s happy with her current girlfriend, I don’t’ want anything to do with the new girl at moment but I think in time I could at least try to be friends. I’m still friends with Kaylie after all.

• Laundry Attendant? Not Anymore.

I no longer work for The Country Inn and Suites. I should have seen this coming. I really should have but I didn’t. I need to go back a bit for this part of the update.
A couple of weeks ago the ex-General Manager came to me and asked me if I could see if there were stains or hair on the clean laundry. I was honest with her and told her I could not. I can feel hair and I remove it or take it to the wash and wash it again, but I am unable to see it. She then tells me after a little over two years of me working there that I no longer am able to perform the tasks for the laundry attendant position. She didn’t want to let me go but she wanted to find me a different position there at the hotel but wasn’t sure what I was capable of doing. Short version is, the front desk worker came in to help defend me and I will always be grateful to her for this, the way she saw it is that I was being discriminated against because my eyes don’t’ work. I felt that was the way of it as well and at the time I didn’t know how to express myself about it. She wasn’t willing to make the accommodation so that I could still do my job, she said she wasn’t going to pay two people to do the job of one person. I ended up crying and leaving work that day. I needed to take the rest of the day for my mental health. It was then decided I was going to be able to stay after all of that mess, personally I think that decision was made because they were afraid that I was going to file a discrimination suit against them. Part of me wants to but the other part of me says it’s not worth it, so I’m leaving it alone. Anyway, this past Thursday they called my job coach to let her know that they were having to let go all of the part time workers from laundry and housekeeping. Once again, I have joined the land of the unemployed and I’m sad but I’ve bene looking for new jobs at any rate. I’ve applied for a few and am still waiting to hear back from them or at least one of them. I am hopeful that one of them will work out for me and if not, well there’s something out there for me. Never ever give up on your dreams, because right now they may seem far away but if you keep chasing them, you will make them come true one day. I’m a very strong believer in this.

• Texas Bound? What?

So… everything I’ve so far written has led up to this big announcement. Are you ready?
Are you really ready?
I’m leaving Minnesota. Surprise!!!
No, seriously, I’m moving out of Minnesota and am Texas bound. I’m moving to Dallas. I’m hoping to be out of here before the first snowfall. I’ve applied for two jobs that are out there, one is with the Hilton Anatole and the other is with the IRS. I actually have an interview with the Hilton that I need to complete next week. I have been offered a home with Bunny, Pooh-Bear and Tigger who just happen to be my partners. I didn’t think that I could ever be with more than one person, but I have watched the dynamics of their relationship and I thought this could work. They also welcome my cats with open arms and I’m quite excited to be leaving. I will mis Flint but I’m hoping that he’ll come to visit from time-to-time. I mean, he’s bene my best friend for the past twenty-two years or so and I don’t’ want to leave him behind but I need to do what is going to work for me. I have spoken with my mother, and she totally approves and says if it will make me happy then I should go, so that’s what I’m doing. It’s a bit scary but also an adventure that I’m ready for.

• Three Positives for September 16th.

1. Rummage sales with friends.
2. Finding more things for my reborns
3. Getting new crock charms for my new crafting idea.

So, there you have it. Those are the highlights of what has bene going on with me since I last posted. I hope you all enjoy the read. I’m hungry so I’m going to go and find a late night dinner, probably cereal but why not? Cereal’s good any time of day.

Much love from the Raven

Way Too Long

Good evening to you all.

New domain, new year apparently, new me.
I can’t believe that it has bene an entire year since I last updated this thing that I call a journal. Where has the time gone? It doesn’t seem that long at all but apparently it has been. So much has happened and I don’t know where to begin, tomorrow when I’m not so sleepy I’ll do a much longer entry.

Three positives for September 14th
1. Cuddling with Luna and Freya.
2. I did a bit of housework that needed to be done.
3. Talking to friends on the phone.

I’m going to try to do this daily, write down three things that were positive during my day. I want this thing to be mostly positive. Yes there will undoubtedly be times where negatives will be here but I’m going to try to put a ton of positives.

Well, I’m getting stupid tired because everything’s funny at the present moment, so I’m headed off for the land of pillows, blankets and dreams.

Stay tuned for the next headline!
Take care all.

Much love from the Raven

Much Excitement!

QUOTE OF THE DAY: If you try anything, if you try to lose weight, or to improve yourself, or to love, or to make the world a better place, you have already achieved something wonderful, before you even begin. Forget failure. If things don’t work out the way you want, hold your head up high and be proud. And try again. And again. And again!
Sarah Dessen
MOOD: Extremely excited
WHERE I AM: The fox den

Greetings from a happy, bouncy, excited, tired but hyper nothing can break my mood kitten!

Yes, I’m so happy! I’m excited! I’m bouncy! Yes yes yes!

• Moving day is upon us!

You read that right, moving day is indeed upon us. WE finally got the news we have so patiently been waiting for! WE! GOT! THE! APARTMENT! Wahoo! At the end of this next month we are out of this hell and into a new place. We go on August ninth to sign our lease, what an awesome birthday present for me as that is the day or should I say night I made my way into the world. Next month will also be spent packing up everything, it will be incredibly busy. We can’t wait!

• Baby Layla Marie

Yesterday I received my early birthday present from Flint and Kaylie, it was a reborn girl that I have decided to name Layla Marie.
Baby Layla’s Details:
Kit: 3 month Joseph
Weight: 11 LBS
Length: 23 Inches
Eyes: acrylic, blue
Hair: painted, light brown
She has full limbs and a cloth body, she’s a little chunk.
I never thought I’d want a baby with painted hair but I like hats so I can get her some little cute bonnets and things like that. I love her, she’s so precious.

• Returning to the air

Beginning in August I will be returning to broadcasting, I think I just needed to take a bit of a brake. Mentally and physically I’ve not been myself for a while now.
I’m really sorry to all of my listeners for being MIA for the last long while.
The same apologies go to XTFM as well for not being there, I’ve missed doing shows and am ready to come back better than ever.
Thanks to you all for your understanding, I know it has been frustrating especially for XTFM. See you all in August!

Well, that’s all I’ve got for now.

Take care and have a wonderful rest of your day/evening/night/morning.

Friday Happiness

QUOTE OF THE DAY: Each of us has been put on earth with the ability to do something well. We cheat ourselves and the world if we don’t use that ability as best we can.
Gracie Allen
MOOD: Feeling pretty good.
LISTENING TO: Nora Jones – Don’t Know Why.
WHERE AM I? The Fox Den.

Greetings Friends and Family.

Things are looking up!
Yes, things are definitely looking up. I’m so hyper and it feels grate to feel like me again at least for the moment. I’m hoping this feeling lasts a while now, I don’t like when I’m down and sad. I don’t like the negative feelings I’ve had as of late.

• A Million Foxes

Now you may be asking: What’s A Million Foxes? What is she on about? WTF? Who or what is she talking about? There are a number of ways to ask that question, I’m going to explain it for you now.
A Million Foxes is the name of our new band. Kaylie, Flint and myself are starting a band and we have our first gig on the 27th of August, we are so excited to see where this goes. We’ll be performing right after the Action Club Theater of Mankato’s play which we are all three in. Two more gigs have also been scheduled for us as well but right now I’m not sure which dates they are. I’ll let you know once I know more. Wish us luck!
This is why I have posted the quote that I decided to use. Flint plays piano/keyboards well, Kaylie plays guitar well and me? Well, I’m the lead vocalist I suppose, at least that’s what I’m told my job is. Personally you all know what I think of my singing ability so I won’t rehash it suffice it to say I’m nervous but still very excited. I believe that as I perform more live that my confidence will build and I won’t feel so badly about my gift. I do appreciate those who have heard me sing and enjoy listening to me.

• So much closer now to the big move!
It’s the waiting game, we got everything turned in to the apartment manager and so we wait to hear yes or no, it totally depends on what their criteria is for new tenants. Hopefully it’s yes but you never know. Not being negative about it, just realistic. Yes, there is a difference.

• No luck with job search
Just like it says, I’ve had no luck with the hunt for my second job. My job coach has a couple of e-mails to send out to companies and we will meet again next week. Still not giving up, the search continues.

• New reborn for me!
Happy birthday to me! My birthday is less than a month away and I’m getting another reborn to add to my babies. I know it’s early but when you want a reborn you have to adopt it pretty much right away or else you might not get it when you go back for it. Thank you Flint and Kaylie for my new baby boy or girl, I’m not telling yet what it is or the name. Yes, I do know what it is going to be and I even have the name picked out. Man! Waiting is so hard when you are excited about something. I almost feel like a kid again. LOL!
Mom is going to kill me though, she’ has been trying to get me to pack up all my baby things and put the babies in storage until we find a new home. Yeah right, I refused. Not putting my kids in a box until I have to move, not happening. Putting my kids in a box, that sounds so wrong. Anyway, I’ll give all the baby details when I receive my new little one.

• Bibbidi Bobbidi Boo!
I find this article extremely interesting. Not everyone is going to agree with Disney’s decision but personally I’m glad they are doing this. Inclusion is good.

Disney has replaced the title of “fairy godmothers” for gender-neutral “apprentices” at dress-up boutiques at its U.S. theme parks in an effort to be inclusive, according to the parks’ websites.

The times are changing and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with places or things making changes to include everyone no matter what their gender, race, religion, disability, sexual orientation may be. All people should be accepted for who they are, not left out or feeling ridiculed so thank you Disney for making this change.

Well, that’s it from here for the moment. It’s time to take my slow moving butt to get ready for my appointment at 3:00. I know it’s just a bit after 1:00 but I’m in pain so it might take me a bit to get going. Stupid sciatic nerve!

You all take care of yourselves.

Exciting Times Ahead!

Quote Of The Day: Listen to your inner voice for it is a deep and powerful source of wisdom, beauty and truth, ever flowing through you. Learn to trust it, trust your intuition, and in good time, answers to all you seek to know will come, and the path will open before you.
Caroline Joy Adams
Mood: Hopeful
What’s In My Ears: Some woman on TV attempting to be funny.
Where I Am: The fox den.

Ello ello.

I’m sorry I haven’t written but I’ve bene binge watching things again. I finished Heartland and am waiting for season fifteen to arrive on Netflix. Currently I’m watching a series called Sex Education, it’s a teen comedy/drama that takes place in the UK. As of now there are only three seasons but season four will be out in 2023 they reckon.

So, I’ve got some possible exciting news! WE FOUND AN APARTMENT!!! Yes, you read that correctly, we found an apartment. I worked on the application for it today and it’s a bit inaccessible, so I need to get a bit of help from a human with working eyeballs to help with part of it. It’s a two bedroom in a secure building so we have to okay people to come in when they come calling. It has all new appliances, stainless steel even with granite counter tops. The master bedroom has a ginormous walk-in closet with the room itself being very spacious. It seems so open and light where here seems so closed and dark. Maybe it’s everything that has gone on here, but the new apartment just feels like home. Kaylie is already thinking of ways to decorate and arrange the furniture in it. The kitchen is a bit small and has a gas stove, but we can get passed that. It has a dining room as well and a dishwasher which makes Kaylie happy. The one thing we will miss about not being here anymore is the place we are hoping to get into doesn’t have a washer and dryer in unit. That’s alright too though, we don’t mind sharing. Oh it’s going to be wonderful! I haven’t seen Kaylie this happy in a while, she seems to be her bouncy self again. She says she feels like there’s hope and that she will be happy to get out of here too. Central heat and air are another part of what we like about this dwelling. Here’s hoping we get accepted and that we will be moving very, very soon. Wish us luck!

Now for a bit of bad news…
I can’t get anymore extra hours at work for the time being. Truly though, it’s alright. I’m still searching for a second job. I’m meeting with my job coach next Tuesday, maybe we will find something I can apply for then. Still not giving up.

I’ve decided I may chop off my hair again to just below my shoulder blades. I also wish to color it lilac with frosted tips. I’m not sure how I’m going to accomplish that one because I read that those of us blessed with red hair have trouble bleaching it for the funky colors. The one time I did try this the bleach kit turned my hair strawberry blond, the lavender that I tried to do didn’t work at all. I figure if I go someplace to have it professionally done, they’ll know what they’re doing and it might actually turn out the way I want it to. I don’t know, I’ll need to think about this a bit more, the last time I chopped off my long locks I missed them. I’m so indecisive at times.

I’m considering a show change on XTFM. Right now I play rock and metal but today I was thinking as I was working on apartment things that I may want to do something different. My options are either The Women’s Circle, The Healing Circle An eighties show, an eighties/nineties show or doing a show where I choose a different theme each week. I’m not sure which I want to do, I’ll have to give it more thought.

Well, I’m a tired kitten so I’m going to head off now.
You all take care and I hope you have a good rest of your night/day. Goodnight to all. 🌝🌟🌠

Darn! Apparently emojis don’t work in word.

All Caught Up

Quote for Today: Life is filled with so many exciting twists and turns. Hop off the straight and narrow whenever you can and take the winding paths. Experience the exhilaration of the view from the edge. “Because the moments spent there, that take your breath away, are what make you feel truly alive.” (“Its The Moments That Take Your Breath Away Quotes & Sayings”)
Stacey Charter
Mood: Indescribable
Listening to: AC/DC – Back in Blac,
Location: The Fox Den

Greetings readers.

• Last Friday.

She told me that she wished to be called Siobhan, though the little girl said she called her Annabelle, so I decided to name her Siobhan at her request.
Do I sound crazy to you? Yes, I probably do but it’s alright. I don’t mind that I’m not exactly normal.
Siobhan is a redheaded doll whose previous name was Annabelle with glass blue eyes and pale skin, she’s made of porcelain. I found her at a rummage sell last Friday while out with my Friday group and she’s absolutely gorgeous! When Chris was describing her to me, she told me that the doll looks like me which made me laugh. I’ve never been described as looking like a porcelain doll before. I’m definitely not breakable though my emotions would dictate otherwise and while porcelain dolls are very beautiful, I am not. Anyway, she only cost five dollars while Chris says she looks as if she costs about $75-100, she’s very detailed and is dressed in Victorian style clothing. I’m now on the hunt for a doll chair for her, I considered a doll stand but she doesn’t stand very well as she’s in kind of a sitting position. I figure I may find one at Hobby Lobby or somewhere like that. Maybe I’ll go this coming Friday and search for one.
I went to a play called Mary’s Fairytale, it was about a disabled woman who got taken to a state hospital when she was about ten because of her disability. Her parents didn’t really have a choice once the state decided to take her there, she lived there it sounds like until she was 21 or so. While there she met a man who she fell deeply in love with and the two made the decision to get married. Mary had to go though the state of Minnesota and jump through a ton of hoops to get her wish granted. They told her she was not able to get married because she had a disability and yet she fought for the freedom to become a wife to the man she loved so much. She dealt with lots of red tape but finally in the end her wish came true, she was so happy and today they are still together as husband and wife. After it was over there was a mock wedding reception and the audience was given cake, actual wedding cake. I didn’t stay though for that as Flint and I went out for dinner. We first tried to go to this place called Rounders Sports Bar and Grill but it was hot that day so some fuses blew out some of the equipment. We left there and ended up at Ummy’s which is another bar type restaurant thing, they have grate food.
The rest of that night was spent relaxing and unwinding, I had to work on Saturday so had to get up early.

• Last Saturday.

Work was hot! I tell you, if it weren’t for the fan we found the laundry room would have been awful. As it was, it was extremely humid and we were sweating like crazy. A ton of water with ice was had and we managed to make it through. When I got home I got cleaned up, it was time to get ready for My and Kaylie’s date.
Pizza was the choice for dinner that night, we went to a place here in town called Pagliai’s pizza. They have excellent pizza, the best in town we think anyway. Anyone who comes to visit must try their food, that is if you like pizza. They do have sandwiches as well as spaghetti and garlic bread. Both of those foods would make wonderful selections if you aren’t into pizza. On the way back home, we stopped for dessert which consisted of shakes from Burger King. Weird huh? I’m thinking now that coming home to eat strawberry shortcake would have bene much better, but it was still good.
I had to work the next day, so the rest of that night was spent relaxing.

• Last Sunday.

Work that day was much better with the temps being only in the 70s and no humidity. We kept the window open so the cool breeze could blow throughout the room, much much better. We were busy as well, but we managed to get a lot done. Ninety rooms had to be clean for a huge conference that was to be held and they’re all staying until Wednesday, I don’t work that day, but I wish I could be there to help Jerri keep up with things. That poor woman will be there alone in the laundry room. My guess is they will have her helping to clean rooms as well. She’s a busy person when she’s there and a very hard worker.
Oh, as of June 26 I have been working for the hotel for exactly one year! Pretty awesome. I’m so grateful that I was given the opportunity to work for The Country Inn and Suites. I’m very thankful I’m still there and intend to be there as long as they’ll have me.
Not much else of significance happened this day except for going to the grocery store as Flint and I seem to do every Sunday evening.

• Yesterday.

Have I ever mentioned the fact that I despise Mondays? If I haven’t I’m saying now that I absolutely, unequivocally, utterly with out a doubt despise Mondays. There, I said it.
Yesterday had to be the longest day ever as far as work goes. My Mondays usually feel long but more so yesterday than any other Monday I can remember. It was hot and my blood sugar dropped…again as it has done for the past few days. I want off these stupid meds!
After work I came home and went out with one of my AARHMS workers to Walmart, there I found a shirt, dress, and a couple pairs of leather flip flops. They’re pretty nice, one pair is white and the other black. I was needing to get both colors for the summer time and I finally found some. Everything I bought was on sale too so that was a good thing, I do try to save money where I can.
After returning home I called Flint and we ran to the Hi-vee gas station where I purchased a couple things and then to Arby’s to pick up dinner. I called my friend Marie and ended up falling asleep while talking to her on the phone. I felt just awful about that, and I did text her this morning to apologize, I’ll call her later to apologize to her by voice though.

So, now you’re up-to-date on what I’ve bene up to. I think today I’m just going to do some job searching on Indeed and maybe some apartment hunting as well. I still would like a second job and a new place to move so I don’t want to put these two things off much longer. I’ve been looking but I took a short break from both.

Before I go, I’m posting this amusing thing that happened.

BLABBERMOUTH.NET: KISS Mocked Online After Displaying Australian Flag During Concert In Austria

I sure hope they don’t display the wrong flag when they perform in Australia. Those guys are getting forgetful in their old ages. LOL! It’s definitely time for them to retire, they had an awesome run for many many years.

Okay, I’m off now but I wanted to wish you all a very happy rest of your day/night/evening/afternoon where ever you are in the world. Sending out positivity and love to all.

Just a Small Update

Chosen Quote for Today: In case no one has told you today, you are enough. You are loved. If all you’re doing is living, it’s enough. Keep being your amazing beautiful self. -Author unknown
Mood: Tired
Music: The silence of the fox den
Location: The land of deep thoughts
Celebrating a Birthday Today: Cyndi Lauper (69), Meryl Streep(73), Tracy Pollan(62), Scritti Politti’s Green Gartside(67), INXS’ Gary Beers(65), Jimmy Somerville(61), Schooly D(56) & Clyde Drexler(60)

What’s on my mind? Way too much to even begin to get things straightened out inside my head, so for now I’m ignoring all of my racing thoughts. I wish I could shut off my brain for a bit, but I suppose that wouldn’t be such a great idea. My thoughts are not necessarily negative ones, they’re just too numerous and I want my brain to take a rest if only for a bit. Yes, that’s it, just for a bit.

I hope today’s entry finds all my readers doing well. Despite my racing mind I’m doing pretty good. I have my health, my cats, my Kaylie, my life and I woke up to breath another day which I’m grateful for.

The past two days it was hot here, temps were well into the nineties with the feel like temperature of 108 on Monday and 106 on Sunday. Tuesday wasn’t too bad with the humidity breaking and it was only about 88 for the high and today was about 84. Tomorrow is supposed to be about 94 with the humidity and dew points making a comeback, I’m not looking forward to that but with thunderstorms returning for the next few days returning it will cool things right off again. Thank goodness!

I just finished watching season ten of Heartland and I still can’t stand Lou, that woman drives me absolutely insane! My favorite character is still Amy and my favorite couple is Amy and Ty. Amy has given birth to her baby and I can’t wait to see what they name it, of course I need to find that out in season eleven. This show is so totally worth watching, it has tear jerkers and man do they know how to end episodes on cliffies. Phew! I highly recommend anyone watch if they love horses and twisted plots.

Work is thinking of extending my Saturday hours! I’m excited about the prospect, I’m hoping I’ll find out about that this weekend when I go back. I was talking to one of my bosses last Saturday and the short but awesome conversation went something like this.

Boss: You all done for the day?
Me: Yes, you know at times I don’t feel like as if my Saturdays are long enough.
Boss: Well, we can keep you longer if you like.
Me: Okay! I would be fine with this.
Boss: You looking to expand your hours on Saturday?
Me: You know? I really would not mind that at all.
Boss: Let me talk to Anna and I’ll see if that would be alright, we could really use you if she approves more hours. Our Saturdays are really busy.
Me: Awesome! Thank you so much!
Boss: Yeah, you’re welcome.
The end.
On Monday I hadn’t heard anything about it so I’m guessing she didn’t have the chance to speak with her yet. Keeping fingers crossed that it works out, I could really use the extra income.
I’m still searching for a second job, nothing has come up yet but it will. There has got to be something out there for me, I just know it.

Currently Flint and Kaylie have fallen into a zoned out state of being. Flint’s sitting on the couch and Kaylie in her computer chair. I wouldn’t be surprised if they fall asleep or have already fallen. Yup, I hear snoring coming from over on the couch. I just knew it, I so knew it. :P.

Well, I’m feeling a bit nauseous so I’m going to head off. I hope you all have a wonderful night but before I go I’ve got a recipe that sounds really good.

Crock-Pot French Toast Casserole


12 Slices Bread (Each Slice Cut Into Thirds)
5 Large Eggs
1 ½ Cups Milk
½ Cup Unsalted Butter (Melted)
1 Cup Brown Sugar
1 Teaspoon Ground Cinnamon
1 Teaspoon Pure Vanilla Extract
¼ Teaspoon Ground Nutmeg


1. Layer the bread pieces in the bottom of a 3.5 quart casserole slow cooker OR a 6 quart or larger slow cooker in a crisscross pattern.
2. In a medium mixing bowl, whisk together the remaining ingredients well.
3. Pour egg mixture evenly over bread in slow cooker.
4. Cover and cook on HIGH for 3 to 4 hours or until the casserole is set but not soggy.
5. Serve slices drizzled topped with maple syrup or fresh fruit.

Alright, that’s all she wrote until next time…*wave*.

You Take the Bad With the Good

Quote of the Day:
“Stay positive even when it feels like your whole world is falling apart.” — Unknown
Dumb but amusing joke:
Q: What did the big chimney say to the little chimney?
A: You’re too young to smoke.

Mood: I don’t know.
Music: Cry by Faith Hill
Location: The Fox Den

Greetings Humans.

Have you ever had a day where all you feel like doing is crying with no reason as to why you want to? You have no idea why, but you can’t seem to get your traitor tears under control, today this is me. Actually, this has been me for the past couple of days. So, I suppose I could say that I have L.E.S. (Leaky eye syndrome). That’s what Kaylie says when she’s crying, she says she has leaky eyes so now I’m calling it leaky eye syndrome. The internet calls it epiphora.
Begin definition:
Watering eye, also known as epiphora or tearing, is a condition in which there is an overflow of tears onto the face, often without a clear explanation. Epiphora happens when there is either an overproduction of tears or insufficient tear film drainage from the eye or eyes.
End definition.
I realize the definition doesn’t match what I’m meaning but I’m still calling it L.E.S., I wish I knew what was wrong with me, but I don’t. I have bursts of tears falling and then I’m alright but the moment someone asks me how I’m doing they come crashing around me again. Traitor tears. I called my therapist and we’re going to have a session today so hopefully I’ll feel better after talking to her, I usually do. I don’t see as often as I used to as she told me I don’t need her much anymore, but she says that I can always call if I need to, so I did. My thoughts have become too much for me to manage on my own I suppose, you think you’re okay, but life has a way of proving that you aren’t.
I’m sorry that I haven’t been so positive in the past few days. I try to continue to be, but I haven’t been able to keep it up. I sort of feel like it’s what people expect of me so when I can’t be I feel like I’m letting everyone down. It’s like I’m supposed to be this happy go lucky girl all of the time and I just can’t be, my feelings just don’t’ allow it so I try to stay away from twitter and other social media platforms, so I don’t let you all down. So, what I’m saying is, I’m so sorry if I have been negative and haven’t felt so grate lately. I’m working on getting back to my overly cheerful self and hopefully I’ll be there again soon. Thanks for understanding. I know I’m not expected to be cheerful all the time, I just feel that way because of some comments I have gotten from certain people that are around me.

I get to meet with my job coach today so I’m pretty excited about that. I’m hoping that we will find something for me to do as a second job. More applications will have to be filled out and sent back to the businesses and I’m ready for it, one of them will hopefully like my resume and call me in for an interview.

Other than that, I’m pretty much going to be a home body as the weather isn’t playing nice. Heat and humidity make it hard to want to go outdoors. We’re supposed to have temps in the high nineties with heat indices in the low 100s, I’m so not down with this at all.
Tonight, severe thunderstorms are in the forecast, I wouldn’t be surprised if we end up in a severe thunderstorm watch before too long. Mayhap they will bring cooler temperatures and lower dew points. One can only hope.

That was written this morning.

Time: 8:05 PM.

It’s now evening here, and I’ve got an update for the day.

I spoke with my therapist like I said I was going to do, and she did help me a bit. At least I don’t feel like bursting into tears over every little thing. We have a few plans in the works now so I feel so much better than I did. I’m still feeling a bit out of sorts, but I think I’m going to be just fine now.

I did meet with my job coach, and she’s got a couple of things she’s looking into, she’s going on vacation next week, so I won’t hear from her until the week after. For my part I’m going to try and search for jobs on my own still using Indeed like always. I’m thinking between the two of us we will come up with something I can do.

See? I’m feeling more positive than I was earlier which is a very good thing.

I’m going to start recording again.
There are so many songs I want to do vocals for and I’m excited about singing again. There are two songs by an artist called Melanie Martinez, one is titled Dollhouse, and the other is called Soap. I absolutely adore these two songs, Dollhouse is kind of creepy sounding and I think that’s one of the reasons I like it so much. That song is pretty much my childhood theme song. Everyone thought we were this perfect family, but they never knew what went on behind closed doors and heaven forbid if anyone ever found out. I have a few more songs saved that I’d like to cover as well so I’m definitely chomping at the bit to get back at it.

Well, I’m going to say goodnight for now as I’m getting tired, and I still haven’t eaten my dinner. Wishing you all a wonderful rest of the evening and a restful night.
I’ll try and write again soon.

Early Morning Update

Quote of the Day:
You look in the mirror and sometimes see a mess of a human being. But you don’t see the lives you’ve touched, or the people you’ve saved. You don’t see all the love you’ve given freely, or the extraordinary memories you’ve made. You are a book of beautiful moments and feelings.
Author Unknown

Greetings Humans.

It’s 6:33 in the AM here in Mankato as I begin to write and I’m tired, so very very tired. Not just physically but emotionally and mentally as well, I’m finding it hard to be positive anymore about this living situation. It seems that when I write it’s usually about wanting to move or trying to find a second job, such a boring life I lead currently. LOL!
The new home search hasn’t gone very well, everything’s either too expensive or already rented by the time I find them and call for information or they don’t’ allow pets under any circumstances. I’m sorry but I’m not willing to part with my fur babies. How do you give up a cat that you’ve raised from kittenhood to adult cathood? Luna’s nine now and has been with me since she was old enough to leave her mom and Mia’s been with me since Kaylie came here and I’m very much attached to her. Then there’s cute little almost nine month old Freya, she’s brought so much life and light back into this place. It would be so hard to part with either of them, it’d be like having to decide to give up one of your children. I just can’t do it. I need a house, that’s the answer but even that’s a dream because I can’t afford one of those either. There is something I’m going to try though and I’m hopeful that it will work. There’s a program for first time home buyers and from what I’m understanding is that they help you with loans or grants that go towards your down payment, so I’m looking into that with the help of Vampy. He knows more about this thing then I do but I’m also doing my own research as well. Our lease ends at the end of July and I refuse to sign another one if I don’t have too.
By the way, Vampy is just a nickname for a friend of ours, that isn’t actually his real name. Just wanted to clarify in case someone read this thing and asks WTF?

I’ve been watching Heartland and I’m hooked, I’ve just started the seventh season last night before going to bed and it’s just amazing.
Jack Bartlett owns a ranch called Heartland, it’s been in his family for six generations. He has two granddaughters, Amy Fleming who has a gift for healing horses that have been abused or those that others see as untamable and unrideable. This gift was passed down from the girl’s mother Marian who sadly died in an accident. Sorry for the spoiler, I don’t’ like those either. She’s often referred to as the miracle girl. The other is Lou Fleming who annoys me to no end! She is so bossy and, in my opinion, very self-centered. Lou is all about Lou. She’s the older of the two but she acts younger than Amy, at least I think she does most times. Tim Fleming is Amy and Lou’s father, he also annoys me to no end but the interactions between he and Jack make me laugh at times. Jack kind of makes me think of my own grandfather and I just want to give him a hug. There are sad moments in this show that have had me in tears and some that have had me laughing pretty hard. Lots of show jumping, barrel racing and various other rodeo type activities are also performed. There’s something that Amy learns as well that’s like horse dancing is the best way for me to describe it, I don’t remember what they call it but she uses dressage whips as some of her cues for the horses to follow her commands. No, she doesn’t whip the horses or anything like that, she just uses them as visual cues. It’s a very action packed show and if you love horses you will love this show.

Well, I need to run because I have three little princess cats that I need to tend to but if you’ve ever wanted to make your own spaghetti sauce I have a recipe for you. It contains celery but I don’t’ believe that belongs in spaghetti sauce so I leave it out.

Easy Homemade Spaghetti Sauce


Olive oil
2 pounds ground beef
6 to 8 onions
6 cloves garlic, minced
1/2 cup chopped celery
1 (12 ounce) can tomato paste
2 (28 ounce) can tomatoes
1/2 cup chopped green pepper
1/4 cup salt
1 tablespoon black pepper
1/4 teaspoon allspice
Dash of hot sauce
Dash of oregano
1 tablespoon sugar
1 tablespoon cider vinegar
1 cup sliced mushrooms
1 teaspoon parsley
Dash of hot pepper
1 cup grated Cheddar cheese, optional


Brown beef in skillet in small amount of olive oil. Add remaining ingredients, except cheese and cook until vegetables are tender and flavors have blended, about 1 hour. Add cheese for last 15 minutes of cooking.

Very simple and tasty too.

Alright, I’m off for now. Wishing you all a day filled with much love and positivity. Remember to always try to find the light, don’t allow the darkness to overcome you. I’m working on this one myself now.
Bye for now.