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Sad Entry alert: today’s post is a rather sad one. If this bother’s you, please close out now and don’t read. I don’t want to make anyone else sad too.
If you are still with me, cool. Read on.
This post is dedicated to Ozzy, my beautiful angel who crossed over the rainbow bridge on September 17 2021.
Ozzy Baryshnikov Poss
Jan 18 2003-Sept 17 2021
You are gone but not forgotten. You’ve left pawprints on my heart.
On the last day of Ozzy’s life, we took him to the vet, and I just knew he wouldn’t be coming back home with us. He had lost so much weight, he was in pain, his meows were sad, and he wasn’t eating very well. Still despite all of this he was very affectionate. He came and rubbed on my legs as he always did wanting to be pet and scratched behind his ears and under the chin. I picked him up and just held him, giving him copious amounts of kisses on his head, and telling him that I loved him. Then the time came for his appointment: we got him into his carrier and closed the door. Luna one of our other cats knew as well that something wasn’t right and so she sat by the carrier’s door rubbing against it as if she were saying her goodbyes to Ozzy. When we got there, we were called back fairly quickly into the room so he could be examined. I still clung to a bit of hope that maybe, just maybe they’d say he was still okay, and we could bring him home, but it wasn’t to be. The vet said that his heart was failing after she listened and that he was only 5.62 pounds I think it was. She told us at this point the best thing we could do was to let him go but the choice was ours. I couldn’t let him suffer any longer, so I made the decision to let him go over the rainbow bridge, that day Ozzy earned his angel wings. It hurt, it hurt so much, for fourteen years he was with me, and his fur caught countless tears. He was my best friend, I felt I could tell him anything and he wouldn’t’ judge. It was time though, so we just held him while he passed, he knew he was loved and that he’d be missed but I know in my heart that it was the best thing for him even though it hurt and still hurts today so much.
I had my beautiful boy cremated and his ashes sit on my desk. Just recently I ordered an urn for him so they wouldn’t have to sit in a cardboard box which is what they gave his ashes back to me in. It came today and it’s gorgeous. It’s a sleeping cat on a heart shaped stone with angel wings and the heart has two pawprints on it. I’ll probably need help with getting the ashes into it, so I don’t have any mishaps and spill them. Also, today there should be a necklace, a wearable urn coming. It is Stirling silver and reads “My fur angel” and is in the shape of a pawprint. I’m going to set up a little memorial for him, I just need to put up a shelf. I have some of his fur, they sent me some of his white and some of his black fur. I have his pawprints as well along with his cremation certificate.
Ozzy,
I miss you little buddy, I miss you so much still. No matter how long you’ve been gone that hurt and pain of your loss is still there. At times we swear we can hear you meowing from the second bedroom where you always seemed to like to be. Luna misses you too, she still sits where your carrier sat on the floor that last day: She even sleeps there sometimes too. Both Kaylie and I think of you always, we’ll never forget you Oz. When we get McDonalds I always try to get chicken nuggets in your memory and eat them for you in your honor. We remember how much you loved those things. I hope you’re getting lots of nuggets over the rainbow bridge, if not I’ll bring you some when I get there ok? Ozzy? Never forget how much I loved and still love you, have fun with all the other animals and enjoy sleeping in the sunlight.
Love,
Your cat mom
“Until we meet again across the rainbow bridge.”
I have a song and a couple of poems that I’m going to leave here, the song is called Beyond the Rainbow Bridge. It covers the loss of all pets, not just cats. The first poem is called May I Go Now by Susan A. Jackson. If you read it, it’s best to have a box of tissues with you, I’m glad I had one on my desk. The second poem is the official rainbow bridge poem by an unknown author but it’s a tear jerker as well, at least I thought so.
Beyond The Rainbow Bridge (PET LOSS SONG) – Trina Belamide
MAY I GO NOW?
by Susan A. Jackson
May I go? May I go now?
Do you think the time is right?
May I say good-bye to pain-filled days
and endless lonely nights?
I’ve lived my life and done my best,
an example tried to be.
So can I take that step beyond
and set my spirit free?
I didn’t want to go at first,
I fought with all my might.
But something seems to draw me now
to a warm and loving light.
I want to go. I really do.
It’s difficult to stay.
But I will try as best I can
to live just one more day,
To give you time to care for me
and share your love and fears.
I know you’re sad and so afraid,
because I see your tears.
I’ll not be far, I promise that,
and hope you’ll always know
that my spirit will be close to you,
wherever you may go.
Thank you so for loving me.
You know I love you too.
That’s why it’s hard to say good-bye
and end this life with you.
So, hold me now, just one more time
and let me hear you say,
because you care so much for me,
you’ll let me go today.
The Rainbow Bridge Poem
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….
Author unknown…
Endless tears again so I’m off for now. Thanks for reading and you all take care of yourselves. If you have a beloved pet hug them tight but not too tight because you don’t’ want to squeeze them but tell them how much you love them every day.
Love from a sad kitten