Dia Dhuit ar maidin or Good morning.
Once again I’m up at the butt crack of dawn, this is getting rediculous! I really hate insomnia, maybe that isn’t what I suffer from but it feels that way at times. I really don’t like to self-diagnose because I’d rather know what’s going on with my body rather than guess at it. Actually I do partially know what’s up but how to fix it is the question. Hmm, will have to work on it.
So what does one do when they can’t sleep? Why they mudd of course! Well, mudd and do research on the Titanic, more about the Titanic research in a bit.
This morning’s mudd of choice is Prometheus, I want to level my character and this time I’m not resetting. It’s really tough to decide whether to be pyrian or human, they both have there advantages, pyrian has more I think but I don’t think I play one very wel even though others seem to think differently.
So i have an update on the job front.
First: my job coaches decided to ditch SSB and not tell anyone they were leaving. I was wondering why I wasn’t hearing anything from them and why they weren’t returning phone calls when I atempted to contact them to see what was going on. I found out on Tuesday from Flint that they just left and didn’t notify anyone, how professional, right? Ugh! Not very professional in my oppinion, it’s rediculous! All hope is not lost however, there’s another guy that I know quite well because he was one of the instructors from the Track to Success program I did, and he helped me get the job at Land to Air. Now I know what some of you are thinking…how well that worked out yes? LOL! I thought the same when this was brought up to me. Anyway, my SSB counselor spoke to him to see if he wouldn’t mind taking me on and help me with finding a job, so he’d be my new job coach. This guy’s name is Tom and he’s fairly a nice guy and easy to work with. Tom asked my counselor if she thought if given the chance I’d go back to work at Land to Air. My immediate answer was no, I was treated so poorly towards the end and even before that, well ever since Jason left…I just couldn’t think of that as an option.
12:07 AM 1/25/2017
I can’t believe in less than a week I’ll be out of this building! I’m so so so so very excited. I have seen my new apartment twice now and I love it more and more each time I see it.
They still haven’t found the person who started the fires here and that still worries and scares me but I just keep telling myself, just a few more days…just a few more days. I’ve got almost everything packed wich is good.
5:50 AM 2/7/2017
So as you can see I’ve bene working on this thing for forever it seems. I’m going to get it finished, no seriously I will.
I’ve been living in my new apartment for a week now and I’m loving it! It’s cozy and even though it gets a bit too warm in here at times I can open windows and it cools it right down. Ozzy and Luna are still quite a bit clingy but they’re getting used to being here I believe. I haven’t gotten everything unpacked just yet but i’m getting there, it’s a work in progress.
Due to the passing of Megan Flint’s been staying here as well. Oh! I haven’t written about that yet. A week ago Saturday Megan passed away from a brain hemorrhage, she was only 22. Megan was a friend of mine and she was Flint’s girlfriend for those who didn’t know. Her mother refuses to acknowledge the relationship between Megan and Flint and even texted Flint accusing him of lieing to everyone about dating her. I’m not going to say anything bad about her as she’s grieving as well and it’s a respect thing. Anyway, Megan will be missed by all who knew her. She just had this way of brightening up your day when you were feeling down, she was so full of life and lived it to the fullest. RIP Megan Elizabeth Bening, you are forever in our hearts. So, as I was saying before relating that sad news, Flint has been staying here and so I’ve been trying to help him get through this time of sadness. I had hoped that he and I would never have this in common, the loss of a loved one. I feel particularly bad for him because first he lost his best friend who was my husband, then his grandmother and his father after that and now his girlfriend. How much tragedy should one have to endure in this lifetime? He certainly has had his share of it. I haven’t been sleeping well due to all this stuff going on.
They have finally caught the person who started the fires in my old building, actually the kid turned himself in. The kid was only 17 and felt bad for what he had done so finally gave himself up. Unfortunately it doesn’t look good for one of the tenants, it was her grandson and he and his friends were drinking in the building. Where he was drinking and who provided the alcohol I don’t know those answers. At least I don’t need to constantly worry about my friends now who are still there, they’ll be ok. These fires have left emotional scars on many of us and now we can begin to heal from them.
I have been working on my Titanic research when taking a break from unpacking and I’m going to write a small paper on what I have found. I’ve also decided that when I’m in school and we have to do a research paper I’m going to do my paper on that. I truely wish I had known about Titanic when I was in high school, I’d have done a paper on it back then but I had no clue about it, they didn’t teach us about that in history class. Maybe when i’m done, I’ll post it here if people are interested.
DISCLAIMER: IF YOU DON’T WISH TO SEE MY VIEWS ON OUR NEW “PRESIDENT” YOU MIGHT NOT WANT TO READ THE REST OF THIS ENTRY AS THAT IS WHAT I AM GOING TO TALK ABOUT. IF YOU CONTINUE TO READ AFTER BEING WARNED, IT’S YOUR OWN FAULT AND I DON’T WISH TO BE FLAMED FOR IT LATER. THIS IS MY JOURNAL AND IF YOU DON’T WANT TO READ, SIMPLY DON’T READ. IT’S NOT ROCKET SCIENCE. THESE ARE MY VIEWS AND MY FREEDOM TO WRITE WHATEVER I FEEL I HAVE TO AT THE TIME OF DOING SO.
So Obama’s out and Trump is in, can’t say I’m happy about Trump becoming president. Oh yes, i watched the debates and the news on him and frankly I don’t at all like what i learned. I don’t like how rude to Hillory he was either during said debates, always interupting her at every turn. I know she’s not perfect but let me tell you all a secret, neither is Trump. I think he’s racist and a bigot, quite frankly he scares me. I won’t go into everything because i”m sure you all heard what was said and what he did and blah blah blah…
I don’t like the whole make America great again thing because I don’t believe that the way he is going about things is going to make this happen. I don’t believe banning people from the United States is a good thing, I feel that it is only going to start a war that we don’t want nor do we need.
I’m afraid that he will try to undo what great strides got made for the LGBTQIA community. I mean, we are allowed to marry now and we matter, we have rights we didn’t have before.
there are other things as well but I just don’t like the uncertainty of the future of these next four years.
I’m seriously ready to just pack up and leave the states, I have places i can go…that’s how worried I am. I worry for my friends from Mexico, I worry for my muslim friends and i don’t know I just worry in general.
I don’t write this to offend anyone but they are my feelings.
Trump to ban access to USA for people from Syria, Iraq, Iran, Libya, Somalia, Sudan & Yemen tomorrow http://www.reuters.com/article/us-usa-trump-immigration-exclusive-idUSKBN1582XQ
I sort of already touched on that above.
Trump advances Dakota Access pipeline. @DylanWohlenhaus reports http://kare11.tv/2jOHtGA
This one has me super upset because of the native americans. I don’t think they take into consideration their feelings as this pipeline will disrupt life for them. I mean it will go through some of their sacred lands and places, not only that but they use the water that runs through there as well. I worry for them, haven’t they gone through enough heartache and bene treated badly by people who don’t seem like they care about them at all? I wish there were something I could do for them, i really do. It hurts my heart that they once again have to go through something they have no choice over. The native american people are so kind and they try so hard to live in peace and I just hate they are having to go through this. From Little White Flower, i’m so sorry, you guys are in my thoughts and posative energies are being sent to you.
I have to show this because I’d like to thank Obama from the bottom of my heart, as someone who is part of the LGBTQIA community and who screamed in pure joy and delight and probably scared the crap out of my neighbors when I learnred that same sex marriage is now law of the land. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you for all that you did to help us with the laws and everything! I know, not very well put but i’m so tired and yeah…just thank you.
This was on the Ellen show.
A Big LGBT Thank You to President Obama https://t.co/Z4G1GeQ1UG
So yes, i’m just afraid…not sure what else to say without repeating myself. Like I said if you got mad at this, read the above disclaimer as I know if you continued after you were warned that I have some pissed off friends. Just know that you political views have know influence as to whether or not we are friends, I don’t have to like your views nor do you have to accept mine. I still love you all.
Alright, I’m done now. I’ll try to write again soon. Maybe the next one won’t be as long.
Take care everyone. XO
Slán go fóill.
Lily